A New Year is starting.
I hope next year will be a little easier than last year. We buried my mom and hubby's dad two weeks apart.
Then, my daughter got married. That was the highlight of the year for sure. But we had just buried my mom May 4 and my father-in-law on May 18. My daughter married June 2. Yes, it was bittersweet.
One week later, my son had surgery. Two weeks after that, I had shoulder surgery.
And now, I find myself on the cusp of shoulder surgery once again. My body doesn't seem to want to heal properly. At least I have a good surgeon. I'm thankful for that.
By far, 2013 was a difficult year for me.
But what amazes me is that I'm still standing. And it's not due to me.
God has walked me through this valley. And He has provided comfort.
So once again, I find myself calling out to Him to get me through. To start the New Year out in His strength, not mine.
I hope next year is easier. Who wants difficulties? No one I know.
But I've learned that it's in the dark times when God's provision shows the most.
My mom was a rock for me. I could, and did, talk to her and daddy about everything. Since my father-in-law was in hospice care, we knew his death was coming. And I talked to mom about it. She and I talked about her suffering.
I have to say I'm so grateful for those conversations.
Mom learned to lean in to God the more she suffered. She became more convinced He was in control, especially of her suffering.
And so, here I am, facing great physical pain. I'm honestly dreading it. I have to have this surgery to fix my shoulder. It won't be easy. But it is necessary.
So, I'm realizing that if this pain draws me closer to God, then it's a good thing.
I also want to end every year being closer to God than the last.
That's been true for 2013. I'm closer to Him now than when I started. Even though the year involved great loss. And great joy.
As I ponder next year, I hope once more that I grow closer to God. Through the ups and downs that will come. I just don't know what they are yet. But that's okay. I know someone who does. And He promises to never leave nor forsake me. Deuteronomy 31:6
I'm clinging to that verse.
What's facing you this year? Do you have a verse to cling to?
My prayer is that you end 2014 closer to God and His love.
Happy New Year!